Sigh. Seriously. why is sometimes doing the right thing the hardest thing of all? Where it's the one thing you know that you want to do but the one thing you know you just need to not do?

sometimes being alive is just a bit hard. Breathing air. just in and out. unless you are upside down in a kayak, and then you really can't breath at all.

right now I think I just need to go to bed.

so I am going.